i know its hard to understand me.
thats coz i dont go around talking about my problems to have people's pity
thats why usually they dunno whats happening in my head while they talk to me. or while im silent.

but when someone understands me
i let them in my world.
& its like a black skyed night light by the whitest moon ever..
its so beautiful & scary.

Eva is one of the very few ppl that without any problem understood me.
immediatly.
when we're together its like our minds share a spiral of ideas...
images..thoughts..stares..
everything doesnt need an explaining.
we get lost in our brains.
we're just like each others muses.
she just stare at me & knows what im gonna say.
its a wonderful feeling.

someday, at her exhibition, she stared at me & told me
"..i dont think people around you get fully how profound & a great person you are."
i swear..a tear almost dropped from my eyes.
i..i was speechless. it was so unexpected.
she probably doesnt even remember it. but it is still printed in my head.
it was a simple sentence. but that sentence meant the world to me.

for the 1st time after long time i felt like what im doing is not completly useless.
for the 1st time i didnt have to act like im the strongest not to admit im just a loser.
she made me understand im NOT a loser.
she made me understand myself more than i do.

& trust me, THATS HARD o_o


for all these things
& more that im not able to explain in words


i love you my Red Queen Eva.
you are one of the best friends i will ever have.
coz we're more than simple friends.

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i will try & upload it again when( & IF )my comp will be fixed.

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[ OC: Red Queen- Pureblacklove, COMA BLUE- N a M i K o ]

[ Made by: N a M i K o ]

[ Tools: water color pencils, black fine marker, a fucked brain. ]